Had an awesome moment today that I felt the need to share with y’all. I spent my day from morning to mid-afternoon, I felt kind of weird, my thought-life was struggling, I felt all of these insecurities and doubts springing up from everywhere. It was just really weird and I kept coming back to the same thought on why I felt the way I did, why did I feel so far away from God knowing that He was so close?
Turned on the radio going down the road and this song came on! What a powerful and uplifting song of truth that was desperately needed during my struggle. It hit me while listening to it exactly why I felt the way I did. I hadn’t once stopped at any point of my day to spend time with God. I hadn’t gotten alone with Him in prayer, pour out all that weighed on my heart and seeked His presence. I hadn’t opened up the Word to see, feel and sit under the power and love of God’s truth.
I know this relationship with God isn’t based off what I do or my faithfulness. I know that how much I work or do will never bring me any closer to God than I already am but spending time with Him, it’s truly so crucial for us distracted, forgetful, and fleshly people. It’s absolutely a must in this life with Him, why? Because in those moments where I felt so far away from God was simply because I was. He was close to me the whole time and working in amazing ways bringing this song to me in the middle of my blues, but I was not close to Him. I hope that makes sense. God is always right there with us but so often we get caught up in our lives, distracted, beat down, and try to do life without Him. Those are moments where even though we are closer than ever to God, without spending time with Him, deeply searching and reminding ourselves of who God is, who He says we are with Him and the fact that He’s with us and He’s got us! We are closer than ever to God but we can so easily feel so far away.
After hearing this song and feeling so distraught all day, I prayed and went to God so intentionally and intimately because I realized feeling far from Him, I felt hopeless, incapable, upset. I came to see my deep need for God and asked Him to pour down His Word like rain, I asked for His Word to speak to me in whatever way He felt I needed to hear Him. Opened up my Bible app, hit a random Psalm and this is what it was!!! The rest of the day, walking into even more unknown territory and out of my comfort zone way more than I had been at all during the first half of my day. After hearing Him speak LIFE to me from this Word, although the situation was tougher, more uncomfortable, I felt so at ease. I felt more comfortable and had more joy than I had all day in what seemed like the easier of the two parts of my day. It’s so cool how powerful God’s Word is and I pray that we don’t take that special opportunity of time God gives us to spend with Him fore granted. Just read these verses and you’ll see what I mean!!! It’s easy to know you’re close to God but it’s also easy to feel far away. The only way to feel closer to Him is to get closer to Him!!!!
“1 I wait quietly before God, for my victory comes from him.